There has been another tragic death in the equestrian community, a life taken doing what she loved – this time an Australian eventer. I didn’t know this young woman personally, but I know who she likely was at the core of her being – someone who had such passion for horses and this sport that she pushed herself every single day. Someone I can relate to. As I read the comments on a Facebook page lamenting this loss, it was a mix of “this sport is too dangerous” to “she died doing what she loved most.” I choose the latter. Which inspired this piece.
When I Go
When I go let it be with no regrets. Let it be with a sense of risk and reward, living life to the fullest and without fear.
When I go let it be due to pushing myself to those limits I may not have thought possible. Let it be with a sense of accomplishment and belief in myself that I could achieve all I once thought unattainable.
When I go please be proud. Proud that I tried and at times succeeded and at times failed. Proud I gave it my all every time out.
When I go let it be with love. Let those who care about me celebrate my life, my passion, my commitment. Let them never wonder if I led a complacent life, wishing I would have done more.
When I go let there be no question I did my best. Never ask if I wanted it too much, because that is not in my vocabulary.
When I go please know the answer is yes – yes I loved with all too often reckless abandon. Yes I knew the danger. And yes, I choose the freedom which comes with it.
When I go do not let them mourn. Instead let me inspire. Inspire to greatness, in whatever form it may take.
When I go do not place blame. Do not think of what may have been if only. Instead know it was from you I drew the strength to believe in myself to try and for that I am forever grateful.
When I go hold him close. Cherish him the way I have. Keep him safe and love him with a full heart, as he is a part of me.
When I go, let me be with my horse.